He Said What?

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cain berlinger, ebook, gay, mm

Wow oh wow for a guy who loves to write I’ve been sadly remiss in keeping my blog postings up. Thanks to you all of you who reminded me of my responsibility to my readers, but I have an excuse. My foot’s getting better! I’m using a cane now (yes, Cain on cane…get it out yer system.) and getting out of the house in time to enjoy Autumn in New York, arguably the best time of the year. Unfortunately no pain really can mean no gain, so the better I’m getting the more pain but hey, inspiration has to come from somewhere. When you are a writer, inspiration comes in all shapes from all places and let’s not forget that there’s nothing on television that can’t be redone to fit our own sense and sensibilities. Special thanks go out to the men and women of Fetlife.com. There are some wild ideas out there, a gold mine waiting to be tapped!

I hope that you had a chance to enjoy Return to Canyon Ranch, one of the two sequels that I have ever written. As a writer I feel I should challenge myself and not bore my readers, so when the spirit presents itself I try my hand at different genres. Canyon Ranch isn’t my first Western themed tale but definitely the most involved. As I love to say, the story began to write itself, and when the story itself makes me happy I’m convinced my readers will enjoy my enjoyment in presenting it to them. Patterned after the American TV classic “Bonanza”, the story follows the adventures of the stud brothers Ross, as they battle cattle rustler Whip Dagger, in his plot to avenge what ends up being merely a broken heart.

This week we plunge in to the behind the scenes world of The Rock Star and the hard luck life they lead behind the scenes and the men hired to protect, and yes even to love them.

Many of my fans have come to recognize many of my tales as having a hard edge sometimes even dark side to them, but every now and then I bridge the gap between drama, romance and sheer fun, and The Rock Star is one of those stories. More about my Dark Side in my next blog installment as “Tales from the Darkside”, my first anthology in e-books and hard copy makes its release around October 21 just in time for Halloween. Not all monsters actually look like monsters but appear in the guise of hot sultry men who have all been noble agendas!

I wouldn’t be where I am if it weren’t for the constant encouragement of my fans and well wishers! I have to tell you a big part of the healing process comes from friends and supporters encouraging me to get well…and soon! I can’t thank all of you enough for the healing vibes (and guestbook postings) coming my way. Believe me nothing humbles you more.

Some really cool surprises lie ahead as the seasons begin to pile up! My final word for this blog is my thanks to Steve Jobs. R.I.P.

See you on the next rung!

S’Long Summer

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Forgive the brief absence but I had to take some time to pick myself up from the floor. Summer’s done! White ducks into the storage bin, sweaters out of the vacuum seal wrappers (really does work). They are canceling television shows as fast as I can record them, while some of my favorites “take a break”. How many TRUE BLOOD episodes am I going to have to relive online before Bill, Eric and Sookie come back to me? Well, I bit the bullet and not only got a land line but a DVR so I can watch more TV but fewer commercials. Time wise I guess it all balances out. I tend to hibernate in the winter.

I know everyone’s dying to know “Hey Cain, what about the foot?” Well, the foot is healing quite well, thank you for asking. I can walk without a cane but prefer walking with it so I don’t come across on the streets of New York as being feeble and easy prey for the predators. My cane can be perceived as a powerful weapon, or not. The foot pain of course is my ever present buddy. I’ve made peace with it in all of its many manifestations, and I am told by my doctor that it won’t be gone till the wound is totally closed. More vicadin please.

All the important people in my life did ok by me this summer in my time of crisis, in one way or another. Some more than others, and if they are reading this they know who they are. Never ever though did I hurt for love or support in whatever form it took. An e-mail, a Facebook posting, all meant a lot and served its purpose. Don’t ever think that a simple “How are you feeling?” isn’t speeding the healing process. It always helps to know someone cares.

I’m also saying bon voyage (good journey) to a dear friend and client. For over seven years I have been this man’s personal trainer in his building’s gym and later the New York Sport Club. I’ve been his life coach battling his demons as well as occasionally my own. He’s leaving for Florida and I’ll miss him, but no one stays away from New York for long. Many will come screaming back the same way they were screaming when they left. That’s New York.

This week’s offering is WARRIORS and it will always be special to me because it was the first time I learned the value of “backing up” what I write on the computer. The first draft of WARRIORS disappeared into computer hell, through no fault of my own, (really I swear) and I could not retrieve it. I literally took to my bed, devastated, as I felt at the time that it was the best piece I’d ever written and I’d never be that imaginative again. I never tried to recapture what I had written and moved on to other projects. Yes, I left it to die, languish, whatever.

Well years later I gathered up my courage and pulled out what was left of WARRIORS out of the archives (notes, lines, thoughts). Completely re-wrote it and am prouder of it now than I ever was. I introduced new elements into it that had previously not existed and cut down a lot of excessive description, preferring to let the reader picture in his own mind the beauty of the native village and its people.

My favorite scene in the whole story is the dance around the fire. I played on my ipod certain drum selections that played through my headphones as I wrote about the sensuality and overt sexuality between the men and women of the tribe, as they welcomed the conquering hero into their fold. WARRIOR unites western culture with a culture vaguely resembling Mayan in its beauty and simplicity. Our hero’s journey toward redeeming his life and entering upon a new phase, is touching, tender and at the same time both challenging and exciting.

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Why I Don’t “Do” Phone

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There is a segment of the Internet community that cruise web sites of a social-sexual nature,  reads or skims profiles in search of love, friendship but mostly NSA (no strings attached) sex. Certainly those of us who do the sites all have horror stories of our own to tell. Segments of that group believe many others are just as attracted to chopped up profile pics than say, a face. Whose to say a hot torso , or a pic of someone’s chest or abs isn’t the key to ‘happily ever after’? Better yet, no pics at all creates an air of mystery. Seems half the Internet is in the witness protection program. Are you ready for your mystery date? My theory is if you run into someone over the age of 10 and they claim no pictures of them exist, run! But remember there are exceptions to every rule, ah’m jest sayin’!

So getting back on topic, you have probably figured that I shouldn’t even be on these sites if that’s the cynical way I feel. Truth is not all experiences have been the stuff of Wes Craven movies. That being said I do have a serious pet peeve and thats the guys who are to lazy to read/write a profile. They want to do phone. There are merits to the phone connection. Sometime a voice can tell you a lot about a ‘hook-up’. Some folks get turned on by a voice. Although a voice can be misleading. Some of us have so fine tuned our fantasy of ‘Mr.Right’ that a nasal voice, stutter, or over use of ebonics can make or break a connection.

Once you get past the voice there’s that question of what do you talk about? If your like me, all the pertinent statistics are in my profile, and if there is one thing I hate its redundancy. Read the profile. Don’t give me your phone number because on a first time ‘maybe‘ because I won’t call you. I don’t write it down, I don’t save the e-mail, and my phone contacts is already full of asterisks (#’s from before I instigated the no call policy).

Usually after the initial “what’s up”? theres the usual (already in profile) questions, and if that doesn’t bore you they’ll try to ease you into sex chat, which if your into that, its cool but this is about me and I’m not into phone sex, why else would I be here!

Other reasons I don’t do phone is that I’m a major multi -tasker. Asking me to do phone means your asking me to devote all my attention to you. I will be watching television, if this is a first call chances are you won’t be as interesting as anything I’m watching be it ‘local news’ or another ‘Criminal Minds’ marathon. I will likely be ‘chatting’ with someone else on line usually a friend with whom we share a mutual interest. Aside from surfing I’ll be paying bills maybe, or working on a story. The point is I’m always in the middle of something else and until proven we have a chance (which would be indicated in a complete profile) theres no reason to waste valued time with you at this point. Even in casual hook ups I have to know theres something more on the table than a sexual connection. I’m not particularly a people person, isn’t this reason enough?  Ah’m jes say’in….LOL

This weeks offering is TY’S SOLUTION a romance story that uses BDSM and forced restraint as romantic tools between star crossed lovers .  I call it one of my softer offerings. Sometime we express our needs through the tools and whatever choices are available to us at the time.  TY’S SOLUTION is a universal theme of two people facing society’s judgements of dating within our own race, conflicting social status and the way they can keep normally rational people apart. TY’S SOLUTION is only one of life’s many options. Until the next time! Enjoy

Cain’s Second Blog

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Hey There Readers, Please take your time to enjoy my new website. It’s a brand new birthing process and I’d really like to share in your feedback, suggestions etc. I’m asking you to shared in the birth process as it were! I’ve had a bit of time on my hands due to a nasty foot infection which landed me in the hospital for three weeks of this lovely summer. Instead of writing about my travels and party highlights I’m writing about pain and surgery and learning to walk again.

BUT WAIT….

This is not going to be a ‘woe is me entry’, we all have problems of our own. There will be time for that later (I look forward to your letters). What I’d like to point out is how to harvest the positive side of a murky situation. First of all try not to go head to toe with the Universe, especialy when it sends you the message that you need to slow down and, yes, smell the roses. I had so much on my plate I couldn’t really enjoy all of it as much as I’d like to, racing off to one airport after another, one event after another. This incident has forced me to see the people I care about more and meet a lot of friends whom I had previously not a lot of time for. Life is not a PBS special and I haven’t changed my ways totally but I’m going to set about a plan to amend them.

Old mans here got to get to the gym and get more of the basics, sleep and water! Who knew? As I rush toward the autumn of my years I realize that without your health, ya got nuthin. As a former personal trainer I know all the stuff to do, I just need a few friendly nudges to push me in the right direction and keep me there.

The real exciting part of this was that while I was almost constantly in pain which means I was almost constantly on pain killers, in the hospital it was the morphine that calmed me the most. A lot of the time it was really hard to focus on anything but the pain, but the writer in me decided to take the madness and sexual fantasies and just go for broke and over the top. The result is my latest offering ‘MORPHINE’. (On Kindle and all other digital formats) and It takes place in an English manor that passes for an institute that houses sexual deviants and is run by Viscount Hillary Preston. Hillary, who seems to have affected cures for man’s most basic instincts, invites his protege Sir Arthur Tinsdale come to Briarcliff Institute to learn of the doctor’s methods. And then watch as the mayhem ensues.

It’s clear I was fighting a lot of demons, morphine induced and otherwise to pound out this 22,000 word novella. There is a little bit of something for everyone, and as my usual trademark, one man’s perversion is another man’s vacation spot. There’s a lot of clear imagery and some murky ideals but don’t read it all in one sitting. Savor the mood, get to know the protagonists as Arthur does. Did I mention there is one mystery? Someone’s in a room at the top of the stairs!

A lot of my writing has explored a lot of ‘vanilla’ sex and veered off into other realms of …difference. I hope you’ll enjoy this book as much as I’ve enjoyed writing it.

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